Lately I have not been in the mood to do much. The reason being that I have been having some “problems” with my husband. My writing has been blocked due to anger and some depression to me honest. The problem is a character flaw which is common but something that you are better off telling someone before they must find out on their own. My husband has always been good to me and the crime he committed he committed three times already and this last time is when he finally came out and told me about his character flaw. Honesty is the best policy it would have been better if I had known the first or second time. The details don’t matter, and this post is supposed to be about something else, but I needed the background story first.
While I lost interest in writing and even in playing my ukulele which I was excited about (I just can’t bring myself to make beautiful sounds while feeling so negative), my negative feeling did spark something else. I have been finding solace in sewing and creating new clothing and items. While I can’t bear to share beautiful ukulele sounds I don’t really HAVE to show my husband any of my creations (although I like to show off the stuff I create).
I believe having a hobby is one of the most relaxing things you can do. While I maybe going through a rough patch my sewing has really kept me grounded. Looking forward to making myself some clothing or gifts for baby showers has really kept my mind busy. Fabric shopping where at the store or through my stash, matching fabric and trying to figure out patterns and zippers have all kept me busy. I am not replacing my sadness with sewing because sewing actually forces you to concentrate and really think about what you are doing. Instead I am focusing that sadness, that slows me down, into really taking my time with my pieces. While I have taken time to just think and just be in my feelings, that’s not always a good place to be all the time. I have been able to better clear my mind with my new-found love and patience for sewing. I have managed to turn my pain into a form of art that relaxes me and allows me to really think not just about the project but about everything going on without having a complete breakdown.
Sewing has actually helped me try me, it has given me the patience I need to be more understanding and try not to be so mean to my husband. Sewing has been my get away in my own home and wearing the clothes and taking pictures (my husband is now forced to take pics for me lol) has given me something new to look forward to. Life is about balance, I hear this a lot, and I found the balance I needed at this time in a hobby that I have put off to the side for quite some time now. I have to say that I have found negatives almost always come with a positive attached to them as long as you can get through the trials thrown at you. You have to get through the bad to get to the good.
Do you have hobbies that keep you balanced? What are somethings you do to keep you centered in your down times? Please feel free to comment below.
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